14 weeks down and I feel like I have a totally different baby. We are out of the "newborn" phase of crying. My sweet little cuddle monster is now wanting to see everything and face outward when he's held instead of snuggling on my shoulder. He's more aware of his surroundings and loving bright colors and patterns. He can sit up in his bumbo like a champ and loves tummy time with the boppy. His daddy and I are so amazed at the rate he's growing and developing, but I'll be honest.. they are bittersweet moments.
I see so many of my friends approaching their due dates or leaving the hospital with their bundles of joy and I want to relive that again! Not with another child, but the very same experience I had with our snuggle bug- I want those moments to cherish, just one more time. Luckily I heeded everyone's advice of "cherish every second, it goes by too fast" and I have soaked up every little moment of these 14 weeks. But, part of me can't help but want to go back and REALLY take it all in, especially my pregnancy. It was hard to "enjoy" it the last trimester since I was on bed rest. I look at pictures of little bit in my belly and want him back in there! I told my husband I'd gladly stay pregnant if I could- those 37 weeks were the only time in his life I could protect him from absolutely everything in the world. No one could hurt his feelings or harm him in any way. He wouldn't have to experience pain, disappointment, sorrow, or heartache. But, that's not realistic and three months ago, the doctor decided it was time for snuggle bug to grace us with his presence. My world changed forever, for the better, on April 24th and I wouldn't want to re-write a second of the story. (Well, maybe the first few weeks of crying..) :)
It has been such a blessing being able to stay at home so I don't have to miss a moment of him growing up. If I could go back and do it all over again, I might open my eyes during labor (or I might not..), I'd let him sleep on my chest just another week before letting him sleep by himself, we would cuddle just a little bit longer during naps, and I'd sneak a few extra kisses in the middle of the night. Oh, and I would DEFINITELY send daddy for the two month shots..
There is truly no greater joy than being a parent and experiencing the smallest glimpses of Heaven in your sweet baby. To me, snuggle bug is a constant reminder of God's grace and mercy. He helps me appreciate every little detail of this life we've been given and to never take it for granted. Every day that goes by I think I couldn't possibly love him more, and he proves me wrong.
